I'm totally worned out. From thurs till now, I had like less then 8 hrs of sleep.

Thursday
Out with me friends chilling and somehow turned out to be a session of consolation. reached home late. Stayed up late to do plannings/ researches for my upcoming Bintan trip. Darn it's messed up. Before I realise it, it's already morning but I can't sleep for if I do, I'd not be able to make it to PA in time.

Friday
After Chingay Preview, Kenrick, Mao and I decided to just chill till late. Hence, again, I couldn't sleep. So that's already 2 nights without slumber. Thought being a helper won't be tiring but no~ I was wrong. It can be really tiring without sleep.

Saturday
Had to reach PA at 3pm but cause of certain factors which I shall not say out, we couldn't make it in time to PA so we decided to go straight to Padang instead. Famished and Tired. Kenrick, Mao, Wei Yang and I decided to go to Raffles City for our dinner and rushed back after that. Chingay this year was kinda boring, rather dull I'd say. Oh well, a parade's a parade. Hitched a ride back to PA from the dancers and rotted for a while. Decided to play with the "helium" balloons but guess that it's not helium in there cause after inhaling the whole balloon of gas, there wasn't even any effect at all. Conclusion, it could be nitrogen instead. O.O! By right, I should be yawning like mad at this point of time but NO~! I was WIDE AWAKE! So I asked Kenrick and Mao (again) to accompany me to go for a short session of lan gaming at JEC. Oh Damn~ does their computer's suck or what! 1st there wasn't the games we wanted to play on ALL THE COMS that I CHANGED~! 4 times~! 4 diff coms~! Lousy Sh*t. Oh well, left that place at 3 plus am and walked home. ah~ 1st sleep after so long.

Sunday
Stayed up till 7, needed to go to (The Republic Cultural Centre)TRCC to help out @ backstage. 1st few to reach there and daze. We didn't do much there, basically what we did was pasting the schedule for the day at each and every places that the MUNGENTS should be able to see. Yes, It's their dance performance and they are M-A-D~!!! Super flexible people and the guys' pencil turns are like more than 10 rounds easily! CHECK THAT SH*T! If you wanna know what else they did, ask me, I won't exaggerate. Swear. After the whole performance, I met up with Brenda for supper @ causeway point's Burgerling XD (don't ask why). She've changed quite a lot from the last time we met ( 1 year ago). After supper, we went our ways and I decided to take 178 from woodlands back home. I thought it'd take me like close to 2 hours to reach home but guess what? It took only 45 mins~! COOL! Reached home at 12 plus, still awake or should I say "Zombified". Anyway I forced myself to sleep but only managed to sleep at 6 am

Monday
9 am, Nicholas, called me on my mobile telling me 'bout the submission of documentations to the Unis that we applied a few days back. Thanks to him, I woke up in shock and was wide awake all over again. (I meant it in a good way.) Decided to spread that news to Benjamin, met up with them in sch at 2 pm to get our result slips photocopied and certified, headed down the MOE HQ to get our O lvl certs reprinted ( yes we misplaced it. don't judge us, it'll be your turn soon! BWAHAHAHA). as it was late, we headed off to Breako to chill and dine instead. Bill was 73 bucks! We didn't have much though. Went to Ben's house to get a new game for PSP and chilled more at a nearby coffeshop while waiting for my childhood friend, Dennis, to come over for his dinner. He got lost. LOL! after a while he found his way, ate and took a ride on his bike back home. Chilly night~

Tuesday
Slept at 2 am till 6 am when I just popped out of my slumber all of a sudden and stayed awake till now. Went back to Ngee Ann to get our photocopied 'O' lvl certs certified too. 1st stop, NUS, handed in our documents to the lady-in-charge only to realise that we needed to include a photocopy of our IC/ passport/ birthcert. Damn all 3 of us to leave that out. Approached this helpful dude for directions to the photocopy services place, he offered to lead us to the place itself THANKS TONS DUDE~! Saved our LIVES~! But after he saved our lives, the stupid auntie in-charge of photocopying said she want to go for her lunch and don't want to help us photocopy our documents. Pissed with her. And again~! I approached another two good samaritans for directions for other photocopying services, this time round, they drew us a map of how to get to the place and lent us their cashcards. Hallelujah! Thank you God for letting us meet all the helpful people today. So we finally done all that's needed to do at NUS. Next stop NTU, headed there by cab and after a short wild geese chase, we managed to find the place to hand in our stuff. Damn NTU IS TOO BIG AND BUILDINGS ARE TOO SCATTERED~! Met up with Carol, ( ben's accquintance), went to JP to eat. lamed quite alot and after they left, i stayed back in jp to wait for my bestest best friend, Lydia, treated me to a wonderful meal of KFC, accompanied her to walk around JP looking for things that she wanted to buy but we didn't in the end. went home, and here am I, still awake, time now is 1:34am. I need to wake up at 7am and reach Boon Keng at 9am for a job interview. Should I sleep? damn.

I don't have much friends I guess. Peeps that I really care and bother about only come to me when they are in need. Yea, friends are meant to be used at times like this but what about the rest of the time when their lifes are going smooth? I'm no where to be found in their mind. Thanks people. I don't hate you. Just disappointed that's all. Now for your turn, think about it. How many of the people around you really consider a friend? sigh... Do I need friends?

Darn I'm excited. Planning to go overseas with two of my buddies. But prob is this, Phuket or Bintan? http://web.bintanlagoon.com/index.htm THIS IS SUPER ATTRACTIVE TO ME. dorgh~! back to planning XD

[Verse 1]
Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life
and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place
and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

[Chorus]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (You only)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again

[Verse 2]
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you,
God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

[Chorus (repeat till end)]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (You only)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

Void

Darn... don't think that i'll be able to come online for the next few days. Lap top's charger is spoilt. Darn~ batt's running low. sigh~ call or sms me if any of you wanna find me k? 92317258. *shrugs*

hey people, have you ever wonder why sometimes you are feeling so mentally tired, so grumpy yet with no reasons or unexplanably emo? I've been wondering why. Are that like signs of depression? If that is, boy i'm in deep shit cause I've been having those thoughts for like months. I know, it's best to share your thoughts and stuff with someone that you trust and all but hmmm... it's really hard to do that. ok I shall not force my friends to share their stuff with me anymore. It's really hard especially at this point of time. relationship, family, friends, school, money... all these are just some of the factors that is affecting me right now and nope, they are not in sequence. Sigh~ Hey friends that are reading this, please don't feel bad that you cannot help or anything. It's not that I don't want to share or anything, but I really don't know how. Just feeling void. My life's empty.

No. I'm not even thinking of suicide, so don't worry. XD aiight, I'm feeling weird again. don't wry though. oh~ leave comments if you want k? =peace out=

Yo Peeps, well as I promised~ here's my poem~! Nawh... Well it really is my poem. copyrighted too. Edited it though. XD Here's the original copy wrote that a couple of years back. Still can't really find good things to write about. Well... yea. ^_^ my first work. Thanks to Mrs. Lim Lye Sim for introducing me to poetry. Enjoy this poem... *pst* it was being published on a sch book b4.

Waiting(edited. "now it's called letting go")

Late in the dark of the night
There I was lying down staring into the velvet sky
Like an artist, the stars drew your face
Smiling brightly at me

Memories of us flashed inside my head
When we were talking shyly to each other
And shared those happy things and sad

All I want is to be with you
To know you, to embrace you
Close to my heart
To love you with my heart and soul

But you turned and walked away
Sorrow trickled down my face
Continued for days and days

Rays of light shout out of the horizon
Lifting this world up
Even though we've part our ways
There our footsteps still remain
But slowly fading
Away.

Time in a bottle by Jim Croce.
Emo Song For The Week! Nice lyrics and nice guitar work.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSp0PEBuzEc

I've been quite depressed for these few weeks. Please don't ask me what cause I don't really know why too. Might be due to the fact that I'm searching for inspirations for poems. Looking into the lives of people and all.

If some stranger were to yell out for help in the midst of a crowd and no one responds, will you answer it? Or instead you will be the first to answer it?

Friends. How would you define that word? A person that would be there for you no matter what time is it or where you are? Another person for you to boast about? A person that you would seek only when you need help or just a listening ear?
For people that knows me and thinks that they agree with the third definition that I said, please get out of my life. I'm serious about this. I've always been telling my friends that I'm honoured and glad when they come to me for help. I've always been willing to help them out, even now. But ever since I look deeper, I tend to question myself. Why am I providing this kind of "services" to them? I still can't answer why. Maybe that's cause we are friends? Sigh... I really don't know why.

Seek help. I've always been telling my close friends that if they have problems in their life, don't keep it in their heart. Let them out, if not, it'll be the same as blowing air into a balloon until it burst. But why it's so hard for me to tell someone about the things that's going in my brain? Still prefer to put my emotions into poetry and dance. I should start doing something soon. I'm about to burst.

People that's reading this, please don't feel bad. That's me. well at least I wrote it out. haha. Look out for my upcoming poems as they drill deep into your heart. XD

Check out this vid. CAT LOVERS~! THIS IS FOR U~! XD
and if you're not, u better start lovin them
http://www.snotr.com/video/674

Yo Peeps~! CHECK THIS TWO OUT!!! GLOBAL OWNAGE!!! ALL HAIL TO SALAH! haha

Part 1~!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUh9BB7OPOI&NR=1
Part 2~!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dE60hUHWoaE&feature=related

In my Dreams,
I Died.
Peace.

LOL. just woke up. Dreamt that I died. How I died and all, I forgot but it all seemed real. Damn... weird dreams again.

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Why must I lose my wings and burn my body just to search for the light in the darkness?

I am the Darkness
I can never become a butterfly
I will just wander in the darkness.
A foolish moth.

COOL HAIKU FROM AN ANIME!

It's 8:47 am, a great Tuesday morning in the quiet project room. NO CLASSICAL MUSIC today! CHEERS. what a great morning. going down to the workshop in a few minutes time. labour work from 9 -5. LOL. project's boring. seriously. What I meant was actually my group members. non-humourous, not serious, no nothing. their commitment, logic, IQ everything bout them is like hanging in mid air, supported by absolutely nothing at all. zzz shucks. so bored. received news from that the bald head came down yesterday and gave another session of tongue lashing to them. Why does he always appear when i'm not around? lol.. i'm starting to wonder. ok. time to be the brain again. i swear, i'm not boasting. that's how lousy my group is. not just about them. as a team. us. zzz

how've everyone been? hope that you're all not doing any stunts w/o fully concentrating. Fell last Sunday, on the back of my head and left shoulder. Now my shoulder and neck is aching, not forgetting a bump on the head. hahaha. thinking back bout it, i could have twisted my body in mid air before hitting the ground.. or maybe not. well... no more round off back somersaults for me for 1 week ^ ^wanna heal ASAP! need to train for NAPHA and to perfect my backsomersaults! LOL! SHA!!!

Are you happy? Are we happy? I've been thinking bout this all of the time. no. not just bout relationships. Even for our everyday life. The things we do or say, the things we did that affect ourselves and let alone others. Who can say that they are truly happy? Who can say that they are not? I'm a brainer. LOL. well... just my thoughts.

Darn man.. Classical music and opera in the morning? In the project somemore! CRAP! ZZZZ sleepers man... i'm dying from the music. . . sucks. dead

OK i swear that i gotta say this right here, right now. Diarreoa IS COOL!!! just imagine, u vomit and shit for long, YET! you don't feel a bit hungry at all! hahaha ok sry peeps. ooff to the toilet again =poof=