I'm lost again. Lost in directions. Lost in my walk of life. Everything seem like a maze and i'm walking in a perfect circle. Studies, Relationship, Religion, CCA... Tons of things that i'm blur about. I'm struggling with my studies, can't cope with most of the modules except for CAD. Really need alot of help but i have no idea who to look for. :(

Though my relationship with Xin Jie is kinda smooth now, but i have no idea whether should i really be in a relationship at this point of time. I really love her alot. So much that i'll rather die den to break up with her. (Dear, if u are reading this now, dun think so much ok? I Love You!!!)

Last night, Rebbecca asked me to go back to church and give myself another chance. I haven't give her an answer yet as i'm still thinking whether can i commit myself to church like i use to as my time is really packed now. I don't want to dissapoint anyone again but if i were to go back, i'll have to sacrifice my archery training and dance which i don't really want to, they are already part of me. Becca, give me a little more time.

I'm not really doing well in my CCA (Archery club). Not as that i'm not performing well but i'm still unsure of what a good president would be like. I'd really hate to see the club tarnished in my hands. There'll be a festival for archers this august and we have to train for 30 meters distance and also stamina shooting. Hopefully some of us are able to shoot more than 1000 arrows on that day. I'd really want some more badges, especially from FITA.

Think i shall this entry here... -Poof- off to meet my girl!

I'm getting weaker by the day and i'm wondering what is happening to me.

Started from a few days back. My knees can barely support my body and they keep giving ways when i walk. Feeling very lethargic. Very Very worn out. The doctor didn't say anything much about it. Adviced me to stop doing my sports and have tons of rest. Sigh... think i'm really going to give up dancing after NDP until all my injuries are recovered. think imma end here. really tired.

Like i said in the previous post, we (Ngee Ann Archers) had a competition at NUS on Sat and Sun. We had our individuals on Sat.Most of our results are like dabian... totally off form. Scored only 332 out of 600. Really bad right? Only Din and Daniel managed to score 400 ++/600 the rest of us scored below 400. Come to think of it, in a way, it is a good experience for us as this is our first real competition so i think it is pardonable yea? haha. Luckily our coach didn't give us a scolding for it. Feel lousy for scoring that badly.

Second Day (Team Event )

We had our Team Events on Sunday, the rules changed suddenly and we only know about it that morning. Each team consists of 3 person and only the top 16 teams can compete in the team event. This is how they determine the ranking, first, they tallied our scores (the 3 person's scores ) and ranked us according to it. Unfortunately, only 2 among the 5 teams can take part. Andrea, Shanthi and Jet is in NP1 and Daniel, Din and me is in NP2. For the male standard event, our first match is against our coach's team. Luckily Daniel and i had our form back. We won their team but 9 points and emerged to the second round where we met face to face with temasek poly's second best team. With the help of our coach's advice and the mind-confusing cheering from our friends, we managed to win TP2 by 2 points and made it to the semi-finals. We were really happy that we could actually made our way into the semi-finals but we were also feeling really nervous as the rest of the teams that are still the competition have a few years of experience whereas we only had 5 months of training. Given 15 minutes of interval, our coach gave us some advice and corrections so that we can improve our form and scorings.

After the interval, we faced NTU's 1st team. We all panicked as Derrick is in that team. Ok, a little bout him. Derrick is the top scorer on day one with a total of 589/600 and won serveral other competitions. Daniel and i did really well but Din panicked and didnt do as well. We lost to them by 12 points and only qualified to compete for the bronze medal but our coach still seem happy. (weird...) haha. We had to compete with the NJC team for the bronze medal. The look on their face when shooting is really funny. Just imagine nerds looking serious. :D haha. But i admit that 2 of them shoot really well. After 2 ends, we tallied our scores and guess wad?! WE WON!!! BY 16 pointS!!! hahaha. YEA!!! After the Archery Club being inactive for 4-5 years, this is the first medal we've got! hahaha. EEE Har!!! LUNCH TIME!!! All of us have been waitin for this since 8 am. After lunch, its prize givin ceremony, a 20 mins of talk from the president of Archery Association of Singapore and finally we wrapped the whole event with our bronze medal in our hands. haha.

THE END

Yeap, so that's about

EEE HAR!!! THE NGEE ANN TEAM 2 IS DA UUNDER DOGZ!!! haha. i'm really happy today. i got my best form ever yet today during the team shooting knocking event same happened to Daniel who's also in my August, We'll be a team again. And now, WE'LL BURN THE REST OF THE POLY TEAMS!!! haha.

Today's the second day of the archery competition hosted by Archery Association of Singapore (AAS) and NUS archery team. its the Team knockout events!!! haha hmmm... think i'll continue tmr. i'm really shagged now. nites

tired tired tired. that's all about today. woke up at 11 today and realise that i'm already absent for my 8am class. but yea, life goes on and on but from 1pm onwards, life begins to suck big time. My ETECH lecturer talked really tons of trash in the class and i have no idea why i flared up at him. hey sorry Mr. Lau, i'll be better to you next time. haha. yea, movin' on, SOM practical from 3-5pm. no idea wad happened but all three of us, radin, fadley and me messed up our formulas we could have left the place at 4 but just before we leave, fadley found out that all our formulas had errors and yep, like you are thinking now, we have to do everything from top again. darn... don't you hate it when that happens? so its end of sch already. one more week have passed our 1st sem.

Darn!!! tmr is the day! My first archery competition!!! reallie excited yet scared. It's not b'coz of fear but its b'coz i've yet to train my finger release and such. lol. God, pls aid me and lend me ur strength for tmr's competition. plz let all my arrows at least hit the red region. Thanks Lord! =) yea... think i shall stop for today le... notin much to say bout my life too.

hermz... dis is my first post for this blog. hope that i can really maintain my everyday updating habit again. Darn... 2 more days to archery competition at NUS... real excited yet scared man... starting to lose faith in my finger release, form and yada yada yada... have been dreaming of zippin my arrows (miss the board), scoring less then 150 (full score is 300 ) and worst of ALL!!! HIT THE WRONG TARGETS OR BOARD!!! AH!!! haha but yea, its only a dream... phew~

I'm in class now... Darn... I'm bored... Having Computer Aided Manufacturing (CAM) at Block 50 hate turning my head to the right. Why? there are some yr 1 students having their IS Sports & Wellness Archery class. looking at how they shoot really make my envy... cause my hands are really itchy now. can't wait to set on hands on my bow and arrows on Sat and Sun! think the current committee members are going to do the hand over during the BBQ after sun's competition. Real happy that i can be the President of Archery Club but i only have one problem, i lack of confidence to lead my friends and also Martin (the current president ) did really a good job. Man... i'm really afraid of tarnishing his hard work. hmmm... ok la... dis is da end of my first post in this blog. Tagboards and stuff will be updated on later dates. ciaos!