wassup with my dream man... ok here's how it goes.
i was in my school with 3 of my other friends namely Ian, Han Ming and Nan Fei. We were walking about the sch for like i got no idea for what purpose. Out of a sudden, i saw my girlfriend and her group of friends namely Alvina, May and Xiao Hui. i went up and gave my girl a hug but she pushed me away almost instantly and got very angry with me. after that, they left the dream. haha. so my friends and i continued walking and some of us need to go to the washroom. so we backtracked to the previous washroom that we walked pass. it had a name or logo for it. it's the copyright sign! wth! anyway... while i was waiting for my friends, there's this commotion about 20 feet away. out of curiosity, i went out and to discover that there's this fox attacking a kitten!! T_T it's tail got bitten off le. den i rushed towards the fox, carried it up and threw it towards a wall. Here comes the most ridiculous part... a croc appeared and decided to munch on that fox. But as soon as it did that, several other people including me starting to save the fox from the croc. lol... lame... that's the end of my dream. short eh?

just thought thati need an update... so yea.. updated..

FreakY DreaM

All started when I fell asleep ( DUH!), received a call from Stanley and Ray. They were calling from Shang Hai. I was all like o.O when I "received" the call. Told me that if I can, go over to Shang Hai ASAP cause there are some really cool things going on there and we will benefit from it ( i still do not know wads that). Alrighty then, right after we "hung" up, I told my parents straightaway that I want to go for this trip. My parents agreed almost instantly and as i go off to my room to pack up, they went back to their room and had a small quarrel. Mom and Dad came into my room after a while and passed me a thousand bucks for the trip and told me to spend it sparingly. I took the money over from Dad happily and unregrettably. Peiyi and Yen Cherng told me that they were going to for the trip too and they will be taking the middle class flight the next day. I was really happy as i'm going to have company with my good friends during the flight.But the problem was that I will be taking the economy class flight. So I went to ask Dad for more money. (wad the freaking sh*t I am) Dad seemed worried when I asked that but after a while, he took all the cash from his wallet and gave it to me with a smile. Man... I was all excited cos not only I can go Overseas again, I can even be in the same flight as my best friends. Things went on and yadayadaya. Couldn't finish packing my stuff as I still do not know what to bring so I asked Peiyi over to my place and help me in packing. As we were packing my stuff, Peiyi overheard my mom and dad's conversation and heard mom scolding Dad for giving me all that money and asked how long is he going to hide the fact that he is jobless already. After that, i got scolded by Peiyi for being a bai jia zi ( something like the scum of the family?) and told me that my Dad had already lost his job. Woke up right after I heard that. It was the end of that dream but it freaked me out as it seemed seriously real. Man... I feel like crap now...

MORE PICS OF FLUFFY!

Ya what? toopid... woke me up.

Yea, so wad time is it now???

Hey did u bring any food for me?

Aite as requested from Jaz, i shall reveal the 7s in my life.

7 things that freaks me out...
1. Flying Roach
2. Darkness
3. Loneliness
4. Losing my sight
5. Losing my lap top
6. The last days
7. Going to Hell

7 things that I like most...
1. Potato
2. Bitter Chocolate
3. Sushi
4. Sashimi
5. Archery
6. DANCE
7. Poetry

7 important stuff in my habitat...
1. My Laptop
2. Da Router
3. Air-conditioner
4. My bed
5. Da lights
6. BLANKIE!!!
7. Suppose to be my Punching bag

7 random facts about me...
1. I'm from the EM 3 stream in primary sch
2. I'm an Archer
3. I'm a dancer
4. I'm lame
5. I LOVE CHUA XIN JIE ( prove me wrong if u can)
6. In a quest of finding myself
7. I collect weapons

7 dying wish...
1. Be able to collect all the different type of shurikens
2. Master the art Ninjitsu
3. Own a set of Katana or Sakabato
4. To have 2 kids ( girl or boy also can)
5. Be a Professional Sniper/ Killer
6. Be in a special task force as a career
7. Score a total of 360 points in a 6x6 scoring round during an Archer competition.

7 BIG NONO...
1. Drugs
2. Smoke
3. Gangsterism
4. Glue
5. Stop smiling
6. Quit dancing
7. Quit playing

7 things i always say...
1. Wassup!!!
2. Wad the Heck
3. Sh*t you
4. Hungry
5. Bored
6. F U la..
7. HAHAHA!!!

7 Celeb crushes...
1. BO A!!!
2. BO A!!!
3. BO A!!!
4. BO A!!!
5. Jennifer Aniston
6. Hyori Lee
7. AND BO A!!!

7 Fav animals...
1. CATS!!!
2. DOGS!!!
3. Rabbits!!!
4. Hamsters
5. Snakes
6. Spiders
7. Sharks

haha Yeap, so this are the few of my 7 s. :)

Aite friends, some of you might know that i'm stubborn guy and always love to fight through any obstacles that comes by me. But there are some sh*t that hits me like a strong baseball bat swing that does real deep damages and scars my life and my feelings. Sh*ts like relationships, studies and family.

Taking damage from one of those factors again. Relationships. I've always been wondering why my past relationship ends only with a word. Failure. Had one that almost made it but i jerk it away. Darn... I'm crying now... tears just burst out while listening to Good Charlotte's Hold On. Thanks guys, you got me there. I really felt like letting go and you sang the chorus. Great timing.

I've been asking myself questions like "Do i really need to feel accepted, reconised by people?", "Why am I clinging onto this relationship so tightly, when I could just drop it and make me feel better?", "Why am i asking so much from her?" and many more. Found all those answers now. It's better not to let her parents know about this relationship till its really stable . Never really know when would it end too. so ya... its better not to let them know at the moment.

Sigh ain't know what to write already. ciaoz

Ok my friends ( though i know no one visit this blog.), gonna tell you more about me. see that cat up there? yep, the one with its back facing us. She's my favourite cat, Fluffy!. I wouldn't even call it a stray cause its just too untrue to be one. peepz, trust me on that. no cats down at the viod deck of my block look like a stray cat to anyone that looks at it. they don't even deserve that name cause there are people that feed them. people like me! hahaha. you might say that they will lose their instincts by us always feeding them, but you are totally wrong. i witnessed (again) another cat named(by me), Stripes, killed a bird while it was flying past it. ITS TOTALLY GRUESOME! yuck. Can't forget how the poor bird yelp for help and stuggle to get outta Stripes fangs. Anyway, i'm an animal lover and i do mean all kinda animal which also mean that when i see anyone doing harm to or bullying an animal, that's it for that person. No room for excuse, face my wrath first then we talk about it. haha. well... that's my rash and stupid. sigh... ain't got nothing to write anymore. kinda sleepy. so ciaoz

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Have you ever thought of giving up in life? The things going through you mind is just like TONS and you have nothin' and/or no one to be there for you. But hey, you have a partner to share things with you. Ain't that right? Nawh... yes i do have a partner, but i do not know how to relate my problems to her. It's just like a pure chinese meeting a russian or whatever. Other than hand signs, there are no other way to communicate. I'm not saying that my girl and I communicate throught sign languages but we just don't seem to understand each other that well. We are still trying but obstacles just hit us like a Cat 5 storm. Things just suck at times. How can we improve our relationship? :( I seriously have no idea. There are things that I've did and I'm wrong. I'll do my best to end them and make sure they'll never happen again. I know what and when I've done wrong too. How bout you? Sigh.. the 5 W and 1 H hit my brain again. Ack'! Everything's messed up. Sigh.. think I'll be better later on.

Watching a TV programme on channel 8 now. Colours of the Blind. Though it's kinda Cheena, but it really teaches us alot. Real meaningful lo. hmm.. when i can i write another poem again? Darn.. i got no idea what to write anymore... sigh...


*messed up *
Taz
the flame is dying

Tired and Sadden...

Sometimes, i just wonder how can a couple that have pointless quarrels be together for so long. is it because the both of them truly love each other so much, that they do not bear to part? They do not know how to phrase the words? Or just because that hate to see each other or themselves being sad? but if it's so, doesn't it mean that they still have feelings for each other?

Sigh... i'm kinda lost in space now. My personal space. All alone in a corner thinking of the 5W and 1 H in my relationship with her. We just had another small and pointless quarrel but yea, its a good chance to speak our hearts out to one another. Just wonder, when can we ever go out freely and without her fretting for reasons/ lies to tell her mom just to meet up with me. This afternoon, she called me up and asked if i want to go out with her. I kinda rejected her when she called me to meet her at far east first. I didn't know that she's not aware of me hating to meet people far away while i have to travel alone. Was quite dissapointed in her and i'm sure that she's dissapointed in me too. Darn... Freak this entry la... my mind is in a deep mess now... DARN THE WHOLE THING!

Shcool's(<--- on purpose) Archer no more !!!
*News Flash* *News Flash* Archer from Ngee Ann Poly owned his Coach in a mano-O-mano Indoor Archery Death Match! For more information, Keep Watching the News! Stay tuned...

Nawh... its juz a dream i had last night. Still ain't happy 'bout the unreasonable "sack" from my school's archery team. Not gonna be a sore loser here but sometimes i just wonder how Lim Chee Wee look at people and even if he is a paid coach of Ngee Ann Archery Club, what gives him the right to judged people and condemn them? Now i realise why was he fired from the post of the National Archery Team Coach. Reason is that he got a humongous problemo with this mouth.

Man... later did i knew that he has an infamous name throughout all Singapore Archery Coaches. WOW!!! Never mention this name infront of other coaches man... they'll go something like " HA! That guy arh?! He talk alot of stupid things one right? So how? When you all go for training, he got coach you people?" And we will go, " NO!" Madness right? but yea, that's the truth, its more of like we are coaching ourselves and also our juniors. Luckily i'm outta the team but i had to give up my post as president too. sianz... but its ok la... with greater power comes greater responsibility and i'm not sure whether can i hold that respondsibility or not.

Heed Martin's advice, along with Shanthi, we went to CDANS (as usual) for self-training a few dayz back. Decided to join their team since i'm not under any coach now. Thanks Terris for accepting me into ur team. From next week, onwards, ITS TRAINING TIME!!!


alright, imma poof off now. ciaoz!

0811 hrs: i'm in school waiting for 9 am's class... you peepz might be thinking why am i in school so early when i can sleep for another hours long. well... this is the answer... I FERGOT TODAY'S CLASS STARTS AT 9!!! hahahaha... another blur start for the day. maybe its because i slept at 6 pm and woke up at 5 am this morning. man... i really missed sleeping alot... after like nly 18 hrs of sleep for the past week, i sorta replenish myself with 11 hours of bedtime! BWAHAHAHA!!! hmmm... i'm listening to Era's The Mass now and i'm thinking of some dance movements and sypnosis while i'm typing. Wonder when can i really chreograph a proper dance. All my friends that are interested have other commitments. Oh ya, guys and girls that love music, you should listen to Era's Ameno ITS AWESOME!!! Saw a performance a few years back and the cheographer used this music for the performance. It really leaved an impact in me. Their moves are really kewl, clean and POWERFUL! Imma cheograph my own dance in time to come! peeps! watch out! haha. hmmm... i'm so bored... darn... i'm so blur today. ack!!! haha. that's all for now. hahaha feel like you've wasted your time? well... i'm doing this to waste my time too, so dun feel bad ok? hehe cyas

Sigh... my knee injury, some how or rather, came back to trouble my movements again. Wonder what sparked that injury this time. hope that it'll heal soon. What's more is that it hurt really bad this morning until i couldn't really move about. which means that i skipped Archery training today. :( gotta really get use to my new bow. I upgraded from a 24 pounds tension force to a 32 poundage bow. Talking about upgrading my bow... anyone wants to go to the gym with me? i'd have to do some physical training in order to maintain my form and my aiming. I won't want to lose my face by not being able to shoot well with a bow like that during Archery festival this August. =)

I feel like i'm drifting away from all the people around me, as if i don't know them anymore. Conversation are like so stale and lifeless. Topicless ( not found in the dictionary. LOL) I'd say. Hmmm... time to do LOTS of catching up with my friends, one at a time. Yea! Friends, Prepared to get Frozen by the legendary lame friend of yours! Bwahahahaha~!!! But for now... off to bed i go. Getting a hair cut tomorrow before school! hehe... gotta have a ugly hair style again. cya peepz

I'm lost again. Lost in directions. Lost in my walk of life. Everything seem like a maze and i'm walking in a perfect circle. Studies, Relationship, Religion, CCA... Tons of things that i'm blur about. I'm struggling with my studies, can't cope with most of the modules except for CAD. Really need alot of help but i have no idea who to look for. :(

Though my relationship with Xin Jie is kinda smooth now, but i have no idea whether should i really be in a relationship at this point of time. I really love her alot. So much that i'll rather die den to break up with her. (Dear, if u are reading this now, dun think so much ok? I Love You!!!)

Last night, Rebbecca asked me to go back to church and give myself another chance. I haven't give her an answer yet as i'm still thinking whether can i commit myself to church like i use to as my time is really packed now. I don't want to dissapoint anyone again but if i were to go back, i'll have to sacrifice my archery training and dance which i don't really want to, they are already part of me. Becca, give me a little more time.

I'm not really doing well in my CCA (Archery club). Not as that i'm not performing well but i'm still unsure of what a good president would be like. I'd really hate to see the club tarnished in my hands. There'll be a festival for archers this august and we have to train for 30 meters distance and also stamina shooting. Hopefully some of us are able to shoot more than 1000 arrows on that day. I'd really want some more badges, especially from FITA.

Think i shall this entry here... -Poof- off to meet my girl!

I'm getting weaker by the day and i'm wondering what is happening to me.

Started from a few days back. My knees can barely support my body and they keep giving ways when i walk. Feeling very lethargic. Very Very worn out. The doctor didn't say anything much about it. Adviced me to stop doing my sports and have tons of rest. Sigh... think i'm really going to give up dancing after NDP until all my injuries are recovered. think imma end here. really tired.

Like i said in the previous post, we (Ngee Ann Archers) had a competition at NUS on Sat and Sun. We had our individuals on Sat.Most of our results are like dabian... totally off form. Scored only 332 out of 600. Really bad right? Only Din and Daniel managed to score 400 ++/600 the rest of us scored below 400. Come to think of it, in a way, it is a good experience for us as this is our first real competition so i think it is pardonable yea? haha. Luckily our coach didn't give us a scolding for it. Feel lousy for scoring that badly.

Second Day (Team Event )

We had our Team Events on Sunday, the rules changed suddenly and we only know about it that morning. Each team consists of 3 person and only the top 16 teams can compete in the team event. This is how they determine the ranking, first, they tallied our scores (the 3 person's scores ) and ranked us according to it. Unfortunately, only 2 among the 5 teams can take part. Andrea, Shanthi and Jet is in NP1 and Daniel, Din and me is in NP2. For the male standard event, our first match is against our coach's team. Luckily Daniel and i had our form back. We won their team but 9 points and emerged to the second round where we met face to face with temasek poly's second best team. With the help of our coach's advice and the mind-confusing cheering from our friends, we managed to win TP2 by 2 points and made it to the semi-finals. We were really happy that we could actually made our way into the semi-finals but we were also feeling really nervous as the rest of the teams that are still the competition have a few years of experience whereas we only had 5 months of training. Given 15 minutes of interval, our coach gave us some advice and corrections so that we can improve our form and scorings.

After the interval, we faced NTU's 1st team. We all panicked as Derrick is in that team. Ok, a little bout him. Derrick is the top scorer on day one with a total of 589/600 and won serveral other competitions. Daniel and i did really well but Din panicked and didnt do as well. We lost to them by 12 points and only qualified to compete for the bronze medal but our coach still seem happy. (weird...) haha. We had to compete with the NJC team for the bronze medal. The look on their face when shooting is really funny. Just imagine nerds looking serious. :D haha. But i admit that 2 of them shoot really well. After 2 ends, we tallied our scores and guess wad?! WE WON!!! BY 16 pointS!!! hahaha. YEA!!! After the Archery Club being inactive for 4-5 years, this is the first medal we've got! hahaha. EEE Har!!! LUNCH TIME!!! All of us have been waitin for this since 8 am. After lunch, its prize givin ceremony, a 20 mins of talk from the president of Archery Association of Singapore and finally we wrapped the whole event with our bronze medal in our hands. haha.

THE END

Yeap, so that's about

EEE HAR!!! THE NGEE ANN TEAM 2 IS DA UUNDER DOGZ!!! haha. i'm really happy today. i got my best form ever yet today during the team shooting knocking event same happened to Daniel who's also in my August, We'll be a team again. And now, WE'LL BURN THE REST OF THE POLY TEAMS!!! haha.

Today's the second day of the archery competition hosted by Archery Association of Singapore (AAS) and NUS archery team. its the Team knockout events!!! haha hmmm... think i'll continue tmr. i'm really shagged now. nites

tired tired tired. that's all about today. woke up at 11 today and realise that i'm already absent for my 8am class. but yea, life goes on and on but from 1pm onwards, life begins to suck big time. My ETECH lecturer talked really tons of trash in the class and i have no idea why i flared up at him. hey sorry Mr. Lau, i'll be better to you next time. haha. yea, movin' on, SOM practical from 3-5pm. no idea wad happened but all three of us, radin, fadley and me messed up our formulas we could have left the place at 4 but just before we leave, fadley found out that all our formulas had errors and yep, like you are thinking now, we have to do everything from top again. darn... don't you hate it when that happens? so its end of sch already. one more week have passed our 1st sem.

Darn!!! tmr is the day! My first archery competition!!! reallie excited yet scared. It's not b'coz of fear but its b'coz i've yet to train my finger release and such. lol. God, pls aid me and lend me ur strength for tmr's competition. plz let all my arrows at least hit the red region. Thanks Lord! =) yea... think i shall stop for today le... notin much to say bout my life too.

hermz... dis is my first post for this blog. hope that i can really maintain my everyday updating habit again. Darn... 2 more days to archery competition at NUS... real excited yet scared man... starting to lose faith in my finger release, form and yada yada yada... have been dreaming of zippin my arrows (miss the board), scoring less then 150 (full score is 300 ) and worst of ALL!!! HIT THE WRONG TARGETS OR BOARD!!! AH!!! haha but yea, its only a dream... phew~

I'm in class now... Darn... I'm bored... Having Computer Aided Manufacturing (CAM) at Block 50 hate turning my head to the right. Why? there are some yr 1 students having their IS Sports & Wellness Archery class. looking at how they shoot really make my envy... cause my hands are really itchy now. can't wait to set on hands on my bow and arrows on Sat and Sun! think the current committee members are going to do the hand over during the BBQ after sun's competition. Real happy that i can be the President of Archery Club but i only have one problem, i lack of confidence to lead my friends and also Martin (the current president ) did really a good job. Man... i'm really afraid of tarnishing his hard work. hmmm... ok la... dis is da end of my first post in this blog. Tagboards and stuff will be updated on later dates. ciaos!