Woots! Two more weeks to POP and YES! I will and AM PROUD to say that I'm from Ninja Company! I can already sense the strong emotions that I'd have on the 9th of Sept. Really wish that someone could be there though but don't think that will work out though. Sigh... Ok I have got no idea what to say here. Haha, I've been away from electronics for too long already. I'm close to being a retard now!

What Jeffrey Lee Kang Wah Means

You are fair, honest, and logical. You are a natural leader, and people respect you. You never give up, and you will succeed... even if it takes you a hundred tries. You are rational enough to see every part of a problem. You are great at giving other people advice. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are loving, compassionate, and ruled by your feelings. You are able to be a foundation for other people... but you still know how to have fun. Sometimes your emotions weigh you down, but you generally feel free from them. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts. You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it. You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator! You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Aiight now... seriously, anyone missed me? haha. I'm out again!!! Whoo! aiight for those that don't know what's happening, I'm in the army already ( finally...) Where you ask? I'm in Ninja Company. The BEST COMPANY in the whole of Tekong! Not only that, I here by declare that the section I'm in is the BEST! XD

well~ It's been 3 weeks already... 10 more weeks to go! I've lost 6 kg so far... I have 10 more weeks to lose more and get my old body back. WOO HOO!!! Hmmm... what can I say bout my Army life? It's really difficult to put it into words. One gotta experience it to know how it feels like. haha. so if you wanna know more, call me or anything. haha.

Booking in again tomorrow at 21 00 hours. Whoo! another week of training to go! Stay Strong Jeff!


=N2402=

Mood: FOUL!
Reason: Left hanging TWICE in two days.

Disappointed in some of my closest friends. Leaving people hanging isn't something that one should ever do ESPECIALLY when you're the one that ask them out. Give them a confirmation or at least like have a plan? I've had enough of going out late at night WITH NO BLOODY PLANS, if not, the same old things. Seriously, it's boring me out. Sorry to say it out straight but I'm really PISSED and disappointed this time round.

Yet another cool video from youtube! This time round, it's an interactive one. The user don't allow other to embedd the vid, so here's the link, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tbEei0I3kMQ

Mood: Uber Happy
Reason: Went out with someone special to me.

Countdown to NS: 7 days

Yo peepz, check this vid out! And while you're at that, buy me one of it @ http://www.theneocube.com

XD came across this super cool site today. Thought that I should just give it a try for fun. Guess who I resemble? Now have a good laugh

Whoo!!! Went to the dragonfly last night! Got signed in by my Bro's sister's manager. Had a cup too many. haha ok la~ I cannot hold my liquor well. Here was the plan, we were suppose to meet 2 other friends for wine, both red and white ( MY FAV!!!) @ tanjong beach. Left the dragonfly at midnight, after 2 hours of drinking to pick up both my other friends. By now, I'm close to dead drunk but I'm just holding myself together with like duct tape or something.

Reached Holland V to meet up with Clara, bought 2 sandwiches and grubbed them. Oh, if I didn't say that I was drinking on a rather empty stomach, yea~ now you know. After Kenrick picked everyone up, we headed over the tanjong beach for our wine. 1st up, white wine! I KO-ed even b4 taking my sip of white wine. hahaha. Dozed off for a minute or two and here it comes, the hangover~ Damn I don't get why would people want to drown their sorrows in alcohol.

It's like totally retarded to get drunk when one's troubled. Not only you're still gonna be troubled, *ding! ding! ding! ding! ding!* you win yourself a good headache too! Ben! YOU ARE DUMB! STOP DROWNING UR SORROWS! Friends that have drinking problem, come and look for me. I'll help you to stop drinking with my brute strength. haha. damn, I'm still feeling tired. ok good night people! erm.. morning.

24th May 2008. I'll forever remember this date. For on this day, I GRADUATED from Ngee Ann Polytechnic!!! WHOO HOOO!!!! (p.s. finally~ phew~)

Yeap that's right~ you've graduated~

My buddy, Clara! *Cheers*

Hmmm~ as I don't really look photogenic and hence the lack of my face in pictures, this is the only one I can post. :D

Countdown to enlistment date: 13 days

Gentarasa 2008: Metamorphosis is OVER! Whoo--Hoo!!! A wonderful experience again on the stage of Esplanade. Great thanks to all the Crews, Dancers and the whole 5 mths odd of training that made this production a success. It's really fun and great. Now~ next to look out for~ PeepS! When are you all free?! Let's go to Sentosa again!!! And clubbing too!! (p.s. never been to a club or pub in SG yet.)

Aiight friends, I'm starting to freak out. Woke up a few minutes ago to realise that a corner of my blanket is soaked in blood. Which means one thing. My freaking nose bleeding problems are back. *curses and swears* Kids reading this, if you get into fights, don't let your nose get hit too much k? BUT then again, DO NOT GET INTO FIGHTS! Body's not really been well recently, food poisoning, old injuries and now, my nose? ok ok~~~ Peeps, I know what you're thinking now~ "JEFF YOU BETTER BLOODY HELL GO SEE A SPECIALIST NOW!!!", so, yeap, I shall. Be on my way now~ Bye people~ *grabs a block of wood* CHOY!!!

damn... another case of food poisoning... this time round i'm not experimenting with flavors. it's the stupid food from the market. *shrugs*

Woots~ Draft for my new poem is DONE! Phase 2 is about the commence! Editing and rephrasing. XD STAY TUNED PEOPLE!!! *spoiler* It's about life. XD

A very cherished friend of mine just asked me a question that was being asked by her other friend. Took me quite a while and TONS of thoughts to answer her but still to no avail. So~ peeps, Guess it's your turn now to think bout this.

Every country or county have their ways of saying hello, for example, (I did my own style XD) Cowboys would say "Howdy" and Mr Hanky says "Howdy-ho"...

So~ now here's the question... How would Singaporeans (yes, as a whole) say hello other than using english? People! Tag your answers to me! XD

I've been super busy with dance training recently for a Wushu performance at Suntec city for Lian He Wan Bao's event and also Gentarasa 2008: Metamorphosis.

Wushu Performance (26th& 27th of April @ Suntec City Hall 402& 403)

The performance was rather boring as the audience's age group is kinda old. So basically, I don't feel any appreciation from the audience. No, not only to our group but to all the performers except for 1 person, Dong Fang Billy. Ok people, Honsestly speaking, I really think that he looks like a monkey. XD Was chuckling away at the backstage when I saw him walking pass us. Yea~ spent this two days performing away. tired.

Gentarasa 2008: Metamorphosis (24th May @ Esplanade)

Sigh~~~ I have got no idea what to say bout this. ok, 2 words, Lousy Management. zzz

Tell you all more bout it next time. when I have the mood for this. LOL

I'm part of this production too!!! XD Anyone wanna come to watch the show?

WHOO HOO!!! Enlistment letter is in my hands now!!! *Opens up the letter* Here what it says, You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act (cap 93), to report for enlistment on the 12th June 2008 at 10 30 am to Basic Military Training Centre(BMTC) School 2. WHOOHOO!!! Ok~ Countday to D-day Starts now! 55 more days to Recruit Lee K W!!! Time to start training again~ but first~ bed. XD nights people~!

Created a new dish today~! BUT!!! It wasn't perfect at all~ why you ask? My sauce suck! Haha ok this is what happened. I woke up this morning and all of a sudden, a vision of a dish flashed by. Consisting of lobster, scallops, asparagus and this weird sauce. ( why weird? cause I have got no idea what sauce was that) Garnished by finely chopped cashew nut and fresh grounded black pepper. Washed up and off to the market I go! Bought the necessary ingredients~ and cooking commenced. Everything went as it should be until I remembered 'bout the sauce, which I have got no idea what it was. So I began to put my brains to work, thought of a "cool" flavor for the lobster which then ends up in a failure. Tried the orthodox sauces and it didn't go well either~ sigh~ so now i'm stuck... Gave up on creating the sauce already... gonna leave it to Mom to wreck her brain, or scold me for wasting money on buying lobsters and scallops for trying out my new dish. PEOPLE! If you have any good ideas for sauces that would or might go well with lobsters and scallops, TELL ME!!!

Oh My Gawd! Dancers of my batch! Guess what I stumbled upon on youtube!!! For people that ain't dancers from my batch or earlier, this item here is called "Forging Ahead" SYF item for Nan Hua Secondary School during 1999.( I was in it too!) Classic item!

Peeps, have you ever felt like an old lap top battery? You get tired oh so easily and you can never have enough of sleep? Been really busy for this past few weeks. Silat's taking my Mondays, Wednesdays and Saturdays. Wushu training on Thurs and dance practises on Sundays. It's all up to tuesdays and fridays for me to rest. BUT! in order to slim down~ I took my both my rest days away to do workouts. Anyone wanna join me for jogs or anything? XD I need a partner, working out alone is boring.

Coming up soon~
27th april: Wushu performance at Suntec City
24th May: Silat/ Malay dance performance at The Esplanade
My new Cheoreography!!! Street Jazz with a tinge of chinese dance ( I'm super excited bout this!) Wish me luck on my new experiment people!

Saw this cool test at my friend's blog. Decided to try it even when my eyes are killing me now.

70 words

Speedtest

ok i need to rest now

sry people, i don't be updating this blog for some time. personal reasons.

WHOO!!! Hit counter to show how little people visit my blog. Seems like I'm like stabbing myself with a toothpick. dratz~ oh well~ we'll see how many people read my lousy posts. XD

Another lifeless day out of my life... Yeap, I think I'm about to suffer from depression again. Same symptoms I had the last time, luckily I pulled myself outta that crap hole, otherwise, I would have sink into the bottomless pit of crap. LOL! Pardon me for my retardedness~ zzz my life is so dull... what should I do to spice up my life? What can I do? I wonder~~~

Life hasn't really been exciting for me for the past few weeks. Boredom lingers around me. It's time I pick up something now! If not, work. XD I feel like a workaholic now. =D Or should I come up with some new flavored food? hmmm ok think I shall do that. Shall post the recipe soon! Pictures from Bintan shall be posted soon. soon~~~

Today's the 1st of april, which also means it's APRIL FOOL'S DAY! But damn~ when you don't really have much people to hang around with or talk to~ there's nothing much you can prank about. People~ talk to me. LOL

People that worked with me at the HSBC event, see anything familiar? Yeap! Noticed that in Bintan. XD Kinda brings back memories yea?

Stolen a pic from a friend's blog. XD was thinking that it's quite funny, hence imma show it to ya'll too.

now~ wonder how it'll look like with specs...

ok~ maybe not~ =x

I'm a baked potato~ And I'M PEELING!!! haha~ Kinda cool yet in the mean time, disgusting. hahahaha. damn~~

I AM BACK!

Missed me anyone? OK~ I don't think so. If you peeps are wondering where the heck I've been recently, I went to Bintan on the 17th till today. 3D2N in a double story villa with 5 other friends and a private club car! Namely, Clara, Jia Li, Pei Yi, Ruth, Benjamin and I.

Day 1

Departed from Tanah Ferry terminal at 5 pm. The ferry was travelling at a super high speed, such that we reached the island in a matter of seconds! o.O ok~ so there's actually a lag time of 1 hour. Headed straight to the resort and met with my 4 other friends that came 2 hours odd ahead of us. a in a matter of minutes~ (close to an hour actually) I met. Mr. Buggy! Ben drove Clara, Ruth and I back to the villa while Jia Li and Pei yi continued to shop over that the main lobby. After I fetched the other two ladies from the main lobby, It's dinner time! Pei Yi and Jia Li made dinner for us on the first night! Angel's hair with sausages, Campbell's soup, this weird spicy and sour clam thingy and baked beans! After our dinner, I decided to take a spin and tour around the resort with the older people. Oh, there's kinda like a age gap in our group. In the older corner! We have! Pei Yi, Jia Li and I! And in the younger corner! Clara, Ruth and Ben! Round 1! fight! Ding ding ding! anyway~ the 3 of us headed straight to the beach and the view was superb! Great wind, clear night sky with lots of stars, nice clear view of the horizon and last but not least, the beach! Chilled at a near by restaurant till 12 plus and headed back for more chilling and a game of black jack whereby the loser have to eat a WHOLE MOUTHFUL OF GOO! =D Consisting of Mashed potato, potato chips, parsley, nutella, Parmesan cheese and some other stuff. Disgusting eh? Ben had 2/3 of it. I had 1/3. Yes, it's a game between both of us. Seriously speaking~ I still thank that it tasted unique but nice.

Day 2
Clara and Ruth made breakfast for us! Slurps~
Headed down to the beach after that and that's when the FUN BEGAN!!! Ran straight for and into the waves. And after a few retarded clashed with them, they got so angry that they took my specs away as a token. So now I'm blind. Lucky for me that I bought a box of contact lens, hence, I could see again! Headed back down to the beach for another face off and snorkeling we go! Took a 15 minutes speed boat ride to a recommended snorkeling location and there, we jumped into the water and swam around for an hour. Corals were EVERYWHERE and so were clown fishes, sea urchins, plankton and other fishes. Chased a school of fishes just to find myself stuck in the midst of the coral reef. Had only 10 cm of clearance from my belly to their surface. luckily I got out without having and scratches or damages to them. Almost stepped on a sea urchin while I was re-wearing my goggles, if not, it'll good-bye to you all. what a dumb way to die. 23-year-old died from sea urchin poison when attempting to wear his snorkeling goggles. LOL! Ok next stop, Pasar Oleh Oleh! Had a wonderful lunch and shopped for our dinner and also a few little gifts. Had a temporary tattoo but Clara said that it doesn't suit me cause I have a kiddish look. T_T Headed back to the villa coz Jia Li had to go back to Singapore due to work matters. Dinner time~ Ben and I am in charge this time round. Well... all we're left is was noodles, cheese, bake beans, parsley, leftover rice, leftover chicken, egg, Egg, and EGGS~ So, cooking was rather easy. Menu: Scrambled eggs, Cheese omelet, omelet with ketchup, egg fried rice, dried-up chicken, baked beans and last but not least, noodles. After dinner and a short shilling session~ all of us went to bed.

Day 3

Woke up by Ben to catch the sunrise only to be disappointed by the cloudy sky which then blocked the emergence of the sun. Well, since we're there, we might as well do something, had a few pictures taken and then it's sea shells and crabs searching time. As Ruth and I walked along the coast line, we found quite a number of interesting things. A washed -up fish, a gigantic clam shell that we wanted to pry open but instead used to saved that fish and hence thrown away for I have got no isea why, clams sticking only an abandoned slipper with their "tongues" sticking out, yellow coloured sea water, dead-but-beautiful corals and mini lagoons on the beach itself. Walked so far from our starting point that Clara described us as a dot from her view. After we've satisfied ourselves with the things on our hand, we headed back to the villa and slacked till it time to check out and off to the ferry terminal we go~! 30 minutes before we enter the gates, I realised that I left a very nice oil painting which I bought at Pasar Oleh Oleh in the villa. After a while of persuasion by the rest, I called back to the resort to report that lost painting. Was told to wait at the ferry termial over at Singapore for the painting to be "delivered" by one of their staff but it never came. Oh btw, I think we waited for 1~2 hours. Thanks for waiting with me people. Rang them again and the lady said that they couldn't contact the staff and also find the painting. Shrugs... Oh well, my mistake. ^^ Thanks for helping me out though, appreciated. Headed down to Bedok for KFC and after which home by cab.

Though we really didn't do much and it doesn't really have the overseas holiday trip, overall, I still kinda enjoyed it. Well~ I might go there again someday. Might. OH~! PICTURES WITH CAPTIONS WILL BE SORTED OUT AND UPLOADED SOON! stay tuned~~~

As said earlier~ here's the pics of our recent gathering!!!
The rain ain't stoppin us from having fun!
MISS YOU GUYS!!! LET'S HAVE ANOTHER GATHERING SOON!

Met up with a few colleagues, great people to hang out with too. They are~ Celestine, Cynthia, Devien, Eugene, Zhao Xiang, Benjamin and Yi Jin. Was suppose to meet them at 9 am but I woke up late. hence again, I took a cab down to Vivo. Had breakfast at LJS, bought a pair of new flip flop. After we got all the things we should get, it's time for us to head over to Sentosa.

Everything was a-okay~ UNTIL!!! *JENG JENG JENG~!!!* It started raining once we stepped out of the tram. Shrugs, in any case, we decided to bunk at palawan beach, sat down at this ulu place, and decided to play the Game Of Concentration! At this point of time, I must say this, I'm sorry to the people that died at my hands! I'm evil. ok, I won't say 'bout what happened but pics might be posted soon. XD The rain ceased after a few rounds of laughter and fun. GOOD

CAPTAIN'S BALL!!! That was our 1st game. XD Kinda Imbalanced with the girl/guy ratio thing, but hell we had tons of fun! It's been so crap long since I've had so much fun and under the rain too!!!

Next up! Volleyball! hmmm... yet another imbalanced team... haha but it was fun too! hahaha. no pics taken during our games though. Eugene can make a very good goal keeper, he just dives for the ball for no reason and at times catching it too. =x

VOLLEY THE VOLLEYBALL CHALLENGE!!! Haha I'm a little embaressed to say this but 8 of us can only manage to volley the ball like hmmm 20 times? or was it 23? or lesser? dorgh, I forgot. ok. Yijin and Eugene ( the gene brothers) decided to take a dip and swim across the "lagoon" hence we waited for their return, headed for the shower and back to Vivo we go! OFF TO THE MOVIES!!!

But first, dinner at food republic, darn~ i was famished, same goes for the gene brothers. The not so hungry Zhao Xiang had cheese balls for dinner. o.O talk about a proper meal... haha. Caught the spiderwick chronicles!!! hmmm sorry people but i'd give it a low rating. Other than the way they end, the movie was quite predictable. For the sake of those that haven't caught the movie, I shall not say it here. Ask me if you want to know! XD

Ok, going off to bed now. 3 more hectic days to this hectic week for me. Jeff. Stay strong and keep smiling. STOP BEING STRESSED UP AND DEPRESSED!

Pictures and videos will be posted soon. -stay tuned-

Tweety!!!

Choc Truffle with Earl grey tea and Tiramisu with Dark Choc Frappe

Tweety and Tazzie ^_^

Met up with Stella yesterday. It's her 21st b day!!! Met up with her to pass her her pressies ^ ^. Since we both have time to spare, she decided to introduce me to one of the best tasting Choc Truffle of all times and it's down at NIE's Library! Laughed our guts out and FINALLY, we took a picture together ^^. Sadly, I had to head down to Newton by 7 pm for practise. See you soon Stella~!!

I'm totally worned out. From thurs till now, I had like less then 8 hrs of sleep.

Thursday
Out with me friends chilling and somehow turned out to be a session of consolation. reached home late. Stayed up late to do plannings/ researches for my upcoming Bintan trip. Darn it's messed up. Before I realise it, it's already morning but I can't sleep for if I do, I'd not be able to make it to PA in time.

Friday
After Chingay Preview, Kenrick, Mao and I decided to just chill till late. Hence, again, I couldn't sleep. So that's already 2 nights without slumber. Thought being a helper won't be tiring but no~ I was wrong. It can be really tiring without sleep.

Saturday
Had to reach PA at 3pm but cause of certain factors which I shall not say out, we couldn't make it in time to PA so we decided to go straight to Padang instead. Famished and Tired. Kenrick, Mao, Wei Yang and I decided to go to Raffles City for our dinner and rushed back after that. Chingay this year was kinda boring, rather dull I'd say. Oh well, a parade's a parade. Hitched a ride back to PA from the dancers and rotted for a while. Decided to play with the "helium" balloons but guess that it's not helium in there cause after inhaling the whole balloon of gas, there wasn't even any effect at all. Conclusion, it could be nitrogen instead. O.O! By right, I should be yawning like mad at this point of time but NO~! I was WIDE AWAKE! So I asked Kenrick and Mao (again) to accompany me to go for a short session of lan gaming at JEC. Oh Damn~ does their computer's suck or what! 1st there wasn't the games we wanted to play on ALL THE COMS that I CHANGED~! 4 times~! 4 diff coms~! Lousy Sh*t. Oh well, left that place at 3 plus am and walked home. ah~ 1st sleep after so long.

Sunday
Stayed up till 7, needed to go to (The Republic Cultural Centre)TRCC to help out @ backstage. 1st few to reach there and daze. We didn't do much there, basically what we did was pasting the schedule for the day at each and every places that the MUNGENTS should be able to see. Yes, It's their dance performance and they are M-A-D~!!! Super flexible people and the guys' pencil turns are like more than 10 rounds easily! CHECK THAT SH*T! If you wanna know what else they did, ask me, I won't exaggerate. Swear. After the whole performance, I met up with Brenda for supper @ causeway point's Burgerling XD (don't ask why). She've changed quite a lot from the last time we met ( 1 year ago). After supper, we went our ways and I decided to take 178 from woodlands back home. I thought it'd take me like close to 2 hours to reach home but guess what? It took only 45 mins~! COOL! Reached home at 12 plus, still awake or should I say "Zombified". Anyway I forced myself to sleep but only managed to sleep at 6 am

Monday
9 am, Nicholas, called me on my mobile telling me 'bout the submission of documentations to the Unis that we applied a few days back. Thanks to him, I woke up in shock and was wide awake all over again. (I meant it in a good way.) Decided to spread that news to Benjamin, met up with them in sch at 2 pm to get our result slips photocopied and certified, headed down the MOE HQ to get our O lvl certs reprinted ( yes we misplaced it. don't judge us, it'll be your turn soon! BWAHAHAHA). as it was late, we headed off to Breako to chill and dine instead. Bill was 73 bucks! We didn't have much though. Went to Ben's house to get a new game for PSP and chilled more at a nearby coffeshop while waiting for my childhood friend, Dennis, to come over for his dinner. He got lost. LOL! after a while he found his way, ate and took a ride on his bike back home. Chilly night~

Tuesday
Slept at 2 am till 6 am when I just popped out of my slumber all of a sudden and stayed awake till now. Went back to Ngee Ann to get our photocopied 'O' lvl certs certified too. 1st stop, NUS, handed in our documents to the lady-in-charge only to realise that we needed to include a photocopy of our IC/ passport/ birthcert. Damn all 3 of us to leave that out. Approached this helpful dude for directions to the photocopy services place, he offered to lead us to the place itself THANKS TONS DUDE~! Saved our LIVES~! But after he saved our lives, the stupid auntie in-charge of photocopying said she want to go for her lunch and don't want to help us photocopy our documents. Pissed with her. And again~! I approached another two good samaritans for directions for other photocopying services, this time round, they drew us a map of how to get to the place and lent us their cashcards. Hallelujah! Thank you God for letting us meet all the helpful people today. So we finally done all that's needed to do at NUS. Next stop NTU, headed there by cab and after a short wild geese chase, we managed to find the place to hand in our stuff. Damn NTU IS TOO BIG AND BUILDINGS ARE TOO SCATTERED~! Met up with Carol, ( ben's accquintance), went to JP to eat. lamed quite alot and after they left, i stayed back in jp to wait for my bestest best friend, Lydia, treated me to a wonderful meal of KFC, accompanied her to walk around JP looking for things that she wanted to buy but we didn't in the end. went home, and here am I, still awake, time now is 1:34am. I need to wake up at 7am and reach Boon Keng at 9am for a job interview. Should I sleep? damn.

I don't have much friends I guess. Peeps that I really care and bother about only come to me when they are in need. Yea, friends are meant to be used at times like this but what about the rest of the time when their lifes are going smooth? I'm no where to be found in their mind. Thanks people. I don't hate you. Just disappointed that's all. Now for your turn, think about it. How many of the people around you really consider a friend? sigh... Do I need friends?

Darn I'm excited. Planning to go overseas with two of my buddies. But prob is this, Phuket or Bintan? http://web.bintanlagoon.com/index.htm THIS IS SUPER ATTRACTIVE TO ME. dorgh~! back to planning XD

[Verse 1]
Im sitting here
Thinking bout
How im gon-na do without
You around in my life
and how am I
I gon' get by
I ain't got no days
Just lonely nights
You want the truth
Well girl im not alright
Feel out of place
and out of time
I think im gonna lose my mind

[Chorus]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (You only)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time)
So let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that i will never love again

[Verse 2]
I miss your face
I miss your kiss
I even miss the arguments
That we would have from time to time
I miss you standing by my side
I'm dying here its clear to see
There ain't no you,
God knows there ain't no me
Don't wanna live, I wanna die
If I cant have you in my life

[Chorus (repeat till end)]
So tell me how you feel (im lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (i think of you)
Baby still (You only)
Do you dream of me at night (like i dream of you all the time, so lonely)
Oh let me tell you how it feels (its like everyday i die)
Wish i was dreaming but its real (when i open up my eyes)
Let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

Void

Darn... don't think that i'll be able to come online for the next few days. Lap top's charger is spoilt. Darn~ batt's running low. sigh~ call or sms me if any of you wanna find me k? 92317258. *shrugs*

hey people, have you ever wonder why sometimes you are feeling so mentally tired, so grumpy yet with no reasons or unexplanably emo? I've been wondering why. Are that like signs of depression? If that is, boy i'm in deep shit cause I've been having those thoughts for like months. I know, it's best to share your thoughts and stuff with someone that you trust and all but hmmm... it's really hard to do that. ok I shall not force my friends to share their stuff with me anymore. It's really hard especially at this point of time. relationship, family, friends, school, money... all these are just some of the factors that is affecting me right now and nope, they are not in sequence. Sigh~ Hey friends that are reading this, please don't feel bad that you cannot help or anything. It's not that I don't want to share or anything, but I really don't know how. Just feeling void. My life's empty.

No. I'm not even thinking of suicide, so don't worry. XD aiight, I'm feeling weird again. don't wry though. oh~ leave comments if you want k? =peace out=

Yo Peeps, well as I promised~ here's my poem~! Nawh... Well it really is my poem. copyrighted too. Edited it though. XD Here's the original copy wrote that a couple of years back. Still can't really find good things to write about. Well... yea. ^_^ my first work. Thanks to Mrs. Lim Lye Sim for introducing me to poetry. Enjoy this poem... *pst* it was being published on a sch book b4.

Waiting(edited. "now it's called letting go")

Late in the dark of the night
There I was lying down staring into the velvet sky
Like an artist, the stars drew your face
Smiling brightly at me

Memories of us flashed inside my head
When we were talking shyly to each other
And shared those happy things and sad

All I want is to be with you
To know you, to embrace you
Close to my heart
To love you with my heart and soul

But you turned and walked away
Sorrow trickled down my face
Continued for days and days

Rays of light shout out of the horizon
Lifting this world up
Even though we've part our ways
There our footsteps still remain
But slowly fading
Away.

Time in a bottle by Jim Croce.
Emo Song For The Week! Nice lyrics and nice guitar work.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PSp0PEBuzEc

I've been quite depressed for these few weeks. Please don't ask me what cause I don't really know why too. Might be due to the fact that I'm searching for inspirations for poems. Looking into the lives of people and all.

If some stranger were to yell out for help in the midst of a crowd and no one responds, will you answer it? Or instead you will be the first to answer it?

Friends. How would you define that word? A person that would be there for you no matter what time is it or where you are? Another person for you to boast about? A person that you would seek only when you need help or just a listening ear?
For people that knows me and thinks that they agree with the third definition that I said, please get out of my life. I'm serious about this. I've always been telling my friends that I'm honoured and glad when they come to me for help. I've always been willing to help them out, even now. But ever since I look deeper, I tend to question myself. Why am I providing this kind of "services" to them? I still can't answer why. Maybe that's cause we are friends? Sigh... I really don't know why.

Seek help. I've always been telling my close friends that if they have problems in their life, don't keep it in their heart. Let them out, if not, it'll be the same as blowing air into a balloon until it burst. But why it's so hard for me to tell someone about the things that's going in my brain? Still prefer to put my emotions into poetry and dance. I should start doing something soon. I'm about to burst.

People that's reading this, please don't feel bad. That's me. well at least I wrote it out. haha. Look out for my upcoming poems as they drill deep into your heart. XD

Check out this vid. CAT LOVERS~! THIS IS FOR U~! XD
and if you're not, u better start lovin them
http://www.snotr.com/video/674

Yo Peeps~! CHECK THIS TWO OUT!!! GLOBAL OWNAGE!!! ALL HAIL TO SALAH! haha

Part 1~!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUh9BB7OPOI&NR=1
Part 2~!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dE60hUHWoaE&feature=related

In my Dreams,
I Died.
Peace.

LOL. just woke up. Dreamt that I died. How I died and all, I forgot but it all seemed real. Damn... weird dreams again.

Watch more videos at KentuckyFriedCruelty.com.

Why must I lose my wings and burn my body just to search for the light in the darkness?

I am the Darkness
I can never become a butterfly
I will just wander in the darkness.
A foolish moth.

COOL HAIKU FROM AN ANIME!

It's 8:47 am, a great Tuesday morning in the quiet project room. NO CLASSICAL MUSIC today! CHEERS. what a great morning. going down to the workshop in a few minutes time. labour work from 9 -5. LOL. project's boring. seriously. What I meant was actually my group members. non-humourous, not serious, no nothing. their commitment, logic, IQ everything bout them is like hanging in mid air, supported by absolutely nothing at all. zzz shucks. so bored. received news from that the bald head came down yesterday and gave another session of tongue lashing to them. Why does he always appear when i'm not around? lol.. i'm starting to wonder. ok. time to be the brain again. i swear, i'm not boasting. that's how lousy my group is. not just about them. as a team. us. zzz

how've everyone been? hope that you're all not doing any stunts w/o fully concentrating. Fell last Sunday, on the back of my head and left shoulder. Now my shoulder and neck is aching, not forgetting a bump on the head. hahaha. thinking back bout it, i could have twisted my body in mid air before hitting the ground.. or maybe not. well... no more round off back somersaults for me for 1 week ^ ^wanna heal ASAP! need to train for NAPHA and to perfect my backsomersaults! LOL! SHA!!!

Are you happy? Are we happy? I've been thinking bout this all of the time. no. not just bout relationships. Even for our everyday life. The things we do or say, the things we did that affect ourselves and let alone others. Who can say that they are truly happy? Who can say that they are not? I'm a brainer. LOL. well... just my thoughts.

Darn man.. Classical music and opera in the morning? In the project somemore! CRAP! ZZZZ sleepers man... i'm dying from the music. . . sucks. dead

OK i swear that i gotta say this right here, right now. Diarreoa IS COOL!!! just imagine, u vomit and shit for long, YET! you don't feel a bit hungry at all! hahaha ok sry peeps. ooff to the toilet again =poof=

Hey peeps, US police are indeed so helpful... Even with Math!!

If you have siblings that is younger than 5, tell him or her to try this! LOL!!!
http://sg.video.yahoo.com/video/play?vid=904564

News update. 7.9 magnitude recorded on Ritcher Scale!! Earthquake struck Southern Sumatra, Indonesia. Somewhere 15.6km away from Palembang and Padang. People, PLEASE PLEASE pray for their well being.

Just realised that there will be earthquakes somewhere around the world everyway. check this site! Gayness.. http://earthquake.usgs.gov/eqcenter/recenteqsww/Quakes/quakes_all.php

COOL!!! FINANLLY!!! The long awaitedmovie for Bleach is out! catch it on Crunchyroll!!! http://www.crunchyroll.com/showmedia?id=156147

Anyway... Did u guys feel any tremors today? Must be really strong or near in order to reach Singapore. Hope that the epi center is far away from any land and that it won't create any tsunamis or hurt anyone this time. Hmmm... well it's my 1st time feeling a tremor like this. it's not common if you live in Teban. LOL. The tremors feels kinda cool and interesting. wonder how it feels to be at the place itself. hmmmm... sry if i'm too insensitive. Peeps! pray for the ppl that's really affected aiight?

signing off.

i need a new blogskin.. anyone has any intros??? in the project room now... feeling really bored. it's gonna be another long day....

How difficult is it for a supervisor to help his group? TELL ME HOW DIFFICULT CAN IT GET?
Seriously speaking, this is for everyone out there. If you don't bother much bout your project group. DON'T FARKING GIVE USELESS COMMENTS TO UR GROUP MEMBERS! THIS IS TO FOO JEE KHOON! SHUT UR PIE HOLE UP!

Check this out... super cool sword display http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RBe0BG4OlTA

Tomorrow's Teachers' Day, so, HAPPY TEACHERS DAY TO ALL TEACHERS!!! ya'll are super cool! For some shout outs, Mrs. Lim, Usha Wassan, Mr Tan, Mdm Norrita! Thanks for changing me into a better man! But there's of course Mr Lam and Mrs Law! They are the ones that turned me 180 degrees around !! My Vice-Principals! from both primary and secondary sch. Thanks ya'll for taking care of me in the academic years!!! Thanks! But hmmm.. they should have a Vice-Principal day shouldn't they? shud suggect it soon. haha. HAPPY VICE PRINCIPAL DAY TO ALL THE VP'S IN THE WORLD

ok another dumb videos for all to chill ^ ^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wwLrgxtALWs
COLLEGE SAGA!

Ok. I'm officialy BORED!!! going to sch from 8 -5 just to do nothing. Ngee Ann really gotta consider giving final year students at least a week of break b4 getting us down to sch everyday from 8 -5 for us to do our project. at least we'll be more motivated. LOL! aiight... i'm super bored.got no idea what to write or what to do. no motivation at all. so i guess imma either game or sleep.

snorez away..

phew~ today's a good day ^ ^ jogged 12 km with my best buddy, Lydia! Roxor! Gonna do it again! Run's good. The run started out from the esplanade bridge, running towards lao pat sat, entering ECP, across the shears bridge, exit via fort road, up the nicole highway, and STRAIGHT TOWARDS THE FINISHING LINE!!! XD realised that i can run, but i need to get my stamina and fitness back first. My personal record for long distance run is 1 hr and 35 mins ( this is my 1st long distance run. LOL!!!) and it's all thanks to Lydia for the constant support that she had been giving me through out the run. Looking out for each other. ROXOR! though we both ended with a bit of injury ( her knee injury was bothering her and i kinda aggrivated my right ankle's injury.) Met up with Adam after that and headed back home.

Darn! i totally forgot bout today's meeting and dinner. went home, bathed, played some games on my laptop. haha. i knew there was something that i need to do but i just can't seem to remember. so... ^ ^ i went to bed. snoreZ~

Hey all after reading my post, check this siteout. LOL! World's favourite videoclip has come to town! GIRLY MAN! MAN! MAN! MAN! MAN! MAN! MAN! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zDKcevMFUCo XD! ENJOY IT!

Still to come~ Standard Charter's 10 km run. haha. Happens to be on my birthday too~! 2nd dec! YAHOO! Training shall commence now. this time round, imma run even faster and hopefully have a higher ranking. Friends, if u are interested in joining me, go to this webby and check it out. http://www.singaporemarathon.com/en/ Hope you'll join me for the run this year end ^ ^ aight enough of blogging, back to games.

Just wanna be alone.

so let me be.

=my heart has died=

Shagged! that's what i'm feeling now. heart beats pumping like mad... 9 am... final paper... and i ain't asleep, i ain't really ready for it. School's where I am at the moment. hiding and chilling with a group of 6 at the student union room. giving in our last charge at the darned module, instrumentation and control. Wish me luck all ^ ^ aiight, back to studying while the rest are playing cards. HAHA!!

Tazzie

Misses

Someone

FIRST OFF!!! Thanks alot Bunny a.k.a. Htet Maw!!! For sending me a song that I just can't seem to find! It's called "Way back into love" by Hugh Grant and Haley Bennett which was also from the movie Music & Lyrics. Though I missed that movie *shrugs*, the song still manage to get my attention and support. hahaha. SUPER NICE!!! Phew, just came back for a practise run... did a little more than 2.4km but it took me almost 15 minutes to complete it. Darn... From this day onwards, imma improve it man... 6 km everyday! do or die! hahaha. take it as a training for NAPHA and Army! RAWR!!! DETERMINATION MAX!!! Studied like a Geek today.from 9 am till 8pm on just 1 module but at least i know that I'll definately pass it ^ ^ hence, everything's aiight for me. Worth it!!! hmmm this is all i remember for today. HAHAHA. ok i shall chunk the lyrics for "Way back in love" down below. Enjoy ^ ^

"Way back in love" Music & Lyrics
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past,
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind
All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me throught the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration 

Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love 

And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

sigh~ I've been thinking alot lately... bout things that has been going on in my life. The Ins and outs. Bout my academic issues especially. It's really worrying me tons. Usually I'd just write my feelings and thoughts down into poems and i'd feel much much better. but now... i can't even think of a good sentence to start off. let alone even write it. ARGH!!! STRESSED!!! I seriously need help... but I don't think anyone can aid me on that... sigh... signing off.

help me.

anyone?

hey sup peeps. darn, it's been long since i've updated this blog.
1st lemme give a shout out to all my Besties!
Brenda! U BETTA STUDY HARD I TELL YA!
Gen! All the best in your studies at LaSalle!
Tweety! T_T why do u always seem to be so busy? well. all da best in NTU! ^_^Lydia! Just follow your heart aiight?
Adam! Aw~ sad case, u lost ur Psp. BUT WTH u bought another on the next day! u rich ass.
Dennis! stop watching porn! (LOL)
ok shout out's done.

now~ cursing. DARN U BLOODY FOO!!! STOP FARKING PLAYING OUT ON US EACH AND EVERYTIME! oh my bad guyz, Foo Jee Khoon, my "project supervisor". He's a bloody dumb fark that nv appears or helps us at all. Not only that he's not helping, he's really dissing us off. givin us false hope and all shit. saying that our drawings and calculations are all good. but during the panel assessment, it's all nuts! panel leaders screwed us badly, but not as bad as he did. it's totally dumb. I shud have sadi that it was him that said the things were all good. ARgh! FARK U FOO!!! WITH MY MOUTH FILLED WITH VULGARITIES, IMMA SWEAR AT YOU EVERY SINGLE TIME I SEE YOU!!! DIE YOU BALDY! ( no offence to the other baldies out there.)

Seriously, I think I'm wasting my life with every seconds passing. What the hell have I been doing for the past few years? Being engrossed in a relationship thinking that it can last till marriage and thereafter. Neglecting the people around me, being even lazy and using the relationship as an excuse for not studying or mugging for homework. I'm not saying that I wasn't serious bout the relationship. I'm dead serious bout it. A little too serious I guess, Man... I'm really a fool. Girl, if you are reading this, dun get mistaken, I'm not trying to speak anything bad about you... Nothing like that at all... I'm just reflecting on my stupid self... Realized that during the last few months of our relationship, I've really neglected you too. Everything was only bout me, me, me and you. Haven't really spent much time to chat with you, be concerned about your life, share with you my thoughts, listen to what you have to say and all. Maybe that's the reason why you said that you don't feel the love in us anymore. I'm so sorry about that. Really hope that you could give me 1 more chance.. sigh.. sorry for saying all this here.

I Still Love You,

I Really Do.

Realize that my phone hasn't been ringing as often... Guess my observation really suck cause it hasn't really been ringing from 2 mths back. Sigh... really feel lonely inside... Guess it's like what my friends said. It's due to the fact that I was in a relationship for quite some time and suddenly I have to be alone. argh... Can't concentrate on my studies.. and I'm really stressed up now... really need a shout out... My math paper is in like 5 hours and 40 minutes time and i can't seem to get to bed or get anymore things into my head... Feeling really lousy right now... Had some flash backs while I was "watching" the movie "Click" with her (that was on tuesday)... bout our past and all... like everytime she tells me that her hands are cold, I'd hold her hands in between mine to warm her hands up... She told me that her hands are cold that day, I wanted to warm her hands up just 1 more time, i thought i could, but she just took her hands away. ouch... that really hurt my heart real bad.. sigh.. remembering that everytime we go to the movies, i'd bring a long sleeve shirt ( normally the black adidas shirt) for her so she probably can keep her body warm for a little bit longer... argh... hey, the pharse is really right. You dun miss the water till it's gone. sigh... yea, i still do miss her and love her... wonder if she does... Even though she says that she don't and said that she won't come back to me, I'll still hope that one day, she'll be back by my side. Damn... I really miss her... i really do... time check, 3:34 am, 5 hours and 26 more minutes to paper time... I'm totally freaking out now and i can't get to sleep... I think I need a doctor...

HAPPY!!! That's how I'm feeling and I'm Smiling real WIDE!!! Why? I have no idea, maybe it's cause I sorta chatted with her today. Ended the chat with something that I really held back for long. I said the 3 words to her! (luckily she did not get pissed off with me. Or maybe she give up le, or just play along) Hmmm... ok... i got myself thinking now... ok... I'll rather be optimistic. ^ ^
I'M HAPPY!!! HELL YEA I AM!

KERTONNI!!! haha. ok if you don't know wad that is, i'll tell you that it's the name of a french dish. But in actual fact, It's InnoTrek spelt backwards.. duh... haha. Went for their training camp yesterday. yeap, I'm joining InnoTrek and i'll be dragging Catrina and maybe Mokthar in with me. haha Considering the fact that we are really good buddies and we share the same passion for outdoors, nope, i can't miss them out from this.

Decided to backout from the filming competition. Wanna concentrate on my studies this semester( definately next sem too.). Sry Hui min Jie the rest of the crew. Just hope that i won't fail anything again... sigh... GAMBATTE!!! okok i'm going off to study. ciaoz

Wow... found another clip bout Kittens.. ok... for this video, it's only 1 little kitten. BUT!!! It's more than enuff to melt your heart. Trust Me... Try watching it! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AgEmZ39EtFk

Darn... Why did the organiser change the U.N.I. event to an outdoor one... ARGH!!! Just this change, I have to change everything that I've came up with. Gotta change the music, the costumes, My Whole FREAKING PLAN!!! Damn... yea... I'm complaining again... Stuck at the stage of remixing songs for my dance... Lack of resources... Songs in my laptop are outdated... Anyone out there willing to go CD shopping with me @ Tower Records and HMV? man.... I'm utterly dissapointed due to the fact that my cheoreography will not be brought into a theatre. RAWR!!!

Ow~ my heart is aching like mad... Why the heck did I ask her bout the past? What in the world are you doin Jeffrey Lee!!! You jolly well know that you only will hurt urself deeper! THEN WHY THE FARK DID U TALK ABOUT THAT!!! U BLOODY LOSER!!! YOU MIGHT AS WELL JUST RUN INTO A WALL A WHOLE GAZILLION TIMES AND HOPEFULLY DIE!!! YOU KNOW THAT NOTHING CAN CHANGE THIS FACT. IT'S OVER AND THAT'S THAT. WHY THE FARK ARE YOU HOLDING ON TO IT LIKE A MOFO. GETTING YOURSELF HURT OVER AND OVER AGAIN DUE TO THIS. FOR WHAT? YOU MOFO. GET A GRIP, USE THE CHANGE AND GET A FARKING LIFE!!!

found 3 links that really made me wipe those tears away and put a smile onto my face. Gonna share it with you all here.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JmNt8wzXJZE&search=cats

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=745qEtcUth8&NR

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BHJ9eUkjWgY&search=cats

Cats are just so cute, cuddly and innocent... Lovethem all!

Been havin alot of pleasant dreams this few nights bout the past that is. No matter how much i tell myself that it's over, but at least this memories are still with me and fresh, I just can't stop my tears from trickling down. Sigh... Still, I'm forcing myself to let it go, but at the same time, a part of me still holds on to her. Argh... My mind's all messed up again... ciaoz

Ok ppl, Seriously, Tell me, Wassup with ppl always being late??? I mean, if u know u are gonna be late, or not be able to show up, will you at least inform ur friends that you'll be late? I betcha will right? I just can't accept the fact that if u made a promise that you'll be down for the practise AND ON TIME why the heck will you only show when around 4 plus when practise starts at 1. Ok... U went out with you buddies till late... That's no excuse dawg... 2 of them went for dance lessons in the morn... They could wake up. Fact is that THEY REACHED HOME MUCH LATER THAN U!!! So dun give me some lame reasons to why you can't wake up... stop giving me ur lame ass excuses and show me something.. Lemme see u doing wad you said and not hearing wad you talk.

As u can see, I'm totally pissed off today. Supposedly, I'm meeting my crew down for practise at 1 today ( Sunday) only 3, including me, turned up. the rest... Not only they did not turn up, they did not even inform us bout it. Even though I informed them bout the dates and all on Monday, none of them even bothered to reply to my e-mail. 5 -6 days... that's the time they had to check their mail boxes, even told them after practise that i'll send e-mails to them, so remember to check. i think only 3 did. Even though they did not reply, they came. ok, Kai Wei have lessons b4 that so he can't make it, thanks bro, at least you told me b4 hand. Xiao Wei, Amanda, you 2 left me speechelss. Thanks for that. Kenrick, Fark you dipshit. If your do believe that you keep ur promises, I'd promise you that the next time you screw things up, I'd be glad and be the first to greet you with my fists. Remember that, you are really got to my nerves this time. I'm not gonna sit back and let this dance drag on.

This is a note to all that's reading this entry. I'm a person that HATES ppl being late. I'm sure most of ur friends do too. Unless they are the ones that are always late. Shud try waiting for late comers OVER AND OVER AGAIN for WEEKS! So do the society a favor and be early. Damn... we shud have a campaign man... Or maybe like jail or fine late comers. Make it a law man... If you can't do it like a respondible human, you gotta be taught how to. Damn late comers!
U all SARK!

Sorry For The Stupid Things Lyrics
By: Babyface

Sometimes we wish for the better
When we have it good as it gets
Sometimes the grass isn't greener
Sometimes we find out we forget
Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really don't mean it all

Sometimes a man
Just don't be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do
Oh so sorry, oh no, oh so sorry

Sometimes I wish I was smarter
Wish I was a bit more like you
Not making stupid decisions made at the last minute
You live to regret when it's through

Well, sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
And sometimes a dog, he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it all

Sometimes a man
Just don't be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Can't always be strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do

Sometimes the fool doesn't know he's a fool
Sometimes a dog he don't know he's a dog
Sometimes I do stupid things to you
When I really didn't mean it at all, at all

Sometimes a man
Just don't be a man
It's not an excuse
It's just how it is
Sometimes the wrong
Don't know that they're wrong
Sometimes the strong
Ain't always so strong
Sometimes a girl
Is gon' be a girl
She don't wanna deal with all the drama in your world
God knows I don't mean to give it to you
So girl I'm sorry for the stupid things I wish I didn't do but I do

OH MY GAWD!!! Had a shocking of my life just 1 hour ago. o.O Was doing my proj till my laptop just went blank on me!!! First thing i thought "Shit!!! MY EX's PICTURES!!!" den i recalled bout my proj. haha. Shit man... My proj's gone... I can redo them though... Luckily not her pictures... sigh... doubt i can get em all back if they were lost. phew... haha hey hey hey HELP!!!! 10 pages on a particular topic for a proj!!! OH MY GAWD!!! WAD THE HELL AM I STILL DOING HERE!!! hahaha off i go! =poof=

When Can I See You Again Lyrics
by Babyface

When can my heart beat again
When does the pain ever end
When do the tears stop from running over
When does you'll get over it begin

I hear what you're sayin'
But I swear that it's not making sense
So when can I see you

When can I see you again
When can my heart beat again
When can I see you again
And when can I breathe once again
And when can I see you again

When does my someday begin
When I'll find someone again
And what if I still am not truly over
What am I supposed to do then

Please hear what I'm sayin'
Even if, if it's not making sense
So when can I see you

[HOOK]

Please hear what I'm sayin'
Even if, if it's not making sense
So when can I see you

[HOOK 2 times]

Lifeless... Skipped school today... no mood for school... Wonder how did I scored for my Applied Mechanics... hope I can pass that... Got back my results for the other modules... not quite happy with it.. Thermodynamics 80 ( i lost 16 marks due to carelessness!!!), Engineering Math 3B, 71 ( forgot to do 1 question!) and Project Management 64. ZZzzz... I flared up at my lecturer for Project Management yesterday... Really can't take it anymore... Just imagine... He goes into the class... teaches you nothin at all and calls you to do the assignments... He don't even know how to use the programme!!! OMG!!! We gotta learn it by ourselves man... I wonder why did Ngee Ann even hire him... plz... someone just sack him!

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WHOO!!! LIM CHEE WEE GOT SACKED!!!! BWAHAHAHAHA... TIME TO GET BACK INTO NP ARCHERY CLUB AND OWN EVERYONE AGAIN!!!

Why does my heart cries...

Hey, have your parents ever went to dye their hair??? I bet most of your parents do right? Colour like black... brown... maroon... ya? haha. my dad was hoping to that too... Disastrous... haha. Apparently my dad tried this hair dye out on his head. My mom helped... it's either that they got the wrong colour, or they left the dye on the hair for too long. haha My dad's hair colour become ORANGE!!! OMG!!! First think i see the hair colour, I thought of Kurosaki Ichigo... Then my dad role playing him... MAN!!! TOTALLY MESSED UP!!! hahaha! omg omg omg... can't stop laughing man... ARGH!!!! PAY PER VIEW!!! 2 bucks for each view!!! OMG!!! hahaha.. sry dad... my bad... anyway.. repeat after me... WASSUP!!!! ^_^

Hmmm... Shit... I forgot all bout my Applied Mechanics project... A 10 pages long essay... ZzZzZzz.. and also a script to write... Yea, that's right, a script. It's for a videography competition that a group of my friends and I decided to join.. aRgh!!! I'm Late!!! haha Come on! Give me some Ideas bout it! Story is bout hair cut... hmmm.. OMG!!! What is it suppose to be!!! ARGH!!!! i'm so in deep trouble.

Dance!!! haha sry i'm going crazy... Been thinking bout 8 counts of dance steps for like 3 hours plus... but nothing new struck my mind... damn... wonder when can we finish our 5 minutes dance... sigh... oh well.. hope that we can get it done before 22nd of August... got a performance that day... no idea if my crew ( not troupe) wants to clinche this show a not.. RAWR! =snores= i'll go think somemore.

hmmm.... after so long... I'm still trying to handle it... hmmm... yea... sigh...

Injured myself from doing stunts yesterday... my right ankle, both knees and my spine is hurt. Again. I have no freaking idea of what I am doing... Peeps... Next time, if you mind is not clear... DO NOT!!! I repeat! DO NOT ATTEMPT TO DO STUNTS!!! haha. oh well... resting at home like a freaking cripple now... who'll be there to bother bout me other than my parents... nawh... no one.. they don't even really bother bout my injuries... too used to it le... sigh... i should just bang my head into the wall now and probably get myself into a deep sleep. so that I can forget bout the past. :) ain't that better? oh well... let's see bout that... a broken skull to begin with... Ugly.. LOL!!! ZZzzz I have no idea wad the heck and i thinking now. I'm not even in the right mind to blog bout anything. so.. yea. signing off there. =poof=

Ah... Tired... didn't know that dancing for 4 items in a row can be real tiring... haha.. yea... I had a performance this afternoon at toa payoh hub. :) hmmm... the crowd isn't really very big and most of them are Ah mas and young children. shagged... time now is... 21 11... Off to bed I go!!! Another performance tomorrow... same place... same time... ZzZzZ Snorez...

Peepz, I just realise something... The more you get yourself into a relationship... The more you'll put your heart and soul into it and you'll love the person more... In the same time... you'll get even more stubborn each time and will try to fight even harder for the relationship to last... But when it all comes to an end... The pain will be even more excrutiating... More unbearable...

You want to move on... Yet your legs are rooted to the concrete floor that you and your other half paved... But only that you forgot to move your legs until the concrete is totally dry... the only way that you can move on is to smash the concrete... Smash every single bit of it so you'll be free... But still there is a chain linked to the other person... And when you can't live with that chain... You have to break it... And the fastest way is to hate the person... If not, the other way round...

Sigh... Please hate me... I'm sorry to make you the "Bad person"... But I just can't hate you... I'm sorry... I love you...

Damn it man... Just how long will I stay like this... Damn it!!! I hate to be weak... Why the FARK I cried even talking to her bout things that has nothin to do with our past. SOMEONE JUST FARKING B*tchslap me man!

Artist Name: 98 Degrees
Album Name: 98 Degrees and Rising
Song Name: I Do (Cherish You)
Lyrics:
I do, I do, I do, I do
All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I
I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day, I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day I do (I'll cherish you my baby)
Cherish you (This much I know it's true)
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will (I'll always love you baby)
Love you still (This much my love it's true)
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
Yes I do (I really love you)
I do (I really love you)
If you're asking do I love you this much
Baby I do (I'll cherish you my baby)
Cherish you (This much I know it's true)
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking me do I love you this much
Baby, I do
I do

I think I really need counselling... I'm totally breaking down into bits now... I'm just a freaking weakling... even though I kept forcing myself to hold back those tears... They just keep rolling down... I really need some help over here... Every single thing I do now makes me think of her all over again... Yes... Even when I shampoo my hair... I'd even think of when she helps me to wash my hair... Never knew that that moment of happiness could also become something that could hurt me even more... Shit man... I so feel like screaming out loud now... Feel so desperate... so lonely... helpless... Sucks... this all just suck big time... Peeps that I've helped in their emotional problems before... PLEASE HELP ME NOW!!! :'(


With you in my life,
I had the strength to do anything.
But now you're gone,
I'm reduced to almost nothing.

You don't miss your water till the well runs dry...

Since the day we parted, I’ve been thinking a lot bout the time we had. Been laughing and crying like a retard when I think of the every single moment that we've spent together. I’ve always been like that though. Starting from the day that I saw you performed “Cats” during assembly till the day that we break…



Sigh…



I miss you a lot... How bout you??? Sigh… Is it really that easy to let a person that you loved so much leave your heart??? Man… I'm totally nerfed… sigh… hope that you'll come back to me someday. I really love you… I really do… When will you come back to me to complete me once again??? I just suck don’t I???

Friends, that’s what you want us to be, maybe for now, maybe forever. I’ll try my best to be your friend, just a normal friend. Give me more time. I need more time. I don’t know how long I will take or how long will I last… Please wait for me just like I’m waiting for you ok?

I Love You...

Call Me When You Get This Corinne Bailey Rae lyrics
Artist: Corinne Bailey Rae
Album: Corinne Bailey Rae
Year: 2006
Title: Call Me When You Get This

How does it feel being in these arms?
What's it really like to be loved?
I've been alone now, how long?
Have you ever loved the way that i have?
And i have often wondered who,
who could love you the way i do?
now i just want you to know,
how i'm touched deep in my soul just being with you.
and i need you more each day.
baby, if you're still awake, call me when you get this.
i've got all this poetry now i didn't know then.
i kept inside.
guess i had never seen anything beautiful
till i first saw you asleep at night.
and i have often wondered who,
who could love you the way i do?
now i just want you to know, how i'm touched deep in my soul just being with you.
and i need you more each day.
baby, if you're still awake, call me when you get this.
i just wanted to know what it was like, what's it really like to be loved?
these little volcanoes came as a surprise to me.
i never thought i could be this way.
and i have been cautious and i've tried to keep to myself, but who could love you the way i do? now i just want you to know, how i'm touched deep in my soul. just being with you.
so much more each day, baby, if you're still awake, call me when you get this

This sarks... thought i've been through sh*t... thought i could bare with the pain and all... but i lost it... Lost it all... Ain't know wad to do... In need of a direction... Thought it could be cool and smooth... But guess i'm wrong once more... Ain't gonna treat it the way I use to no more... No more giving in all I can for it... For all I care now, there's no point in doing so much... You only know how sh*ttified when it backfires... Just let it roll by itself till someday when it shatter on it's own... Weak as I use to be and still am... Read my lips. Beat It!

I'm seriously disappointed and messed up now... In need of a listening ear from any of my friends... but they are no where to be found... Now I know why Connie said about the different kinda friends... Now I understand that statement...

Sigh... If you are reading this now... And you get pissed off or affected by what I say... Pardon me... It's straight from my head at this point of time... I'm not going to delete this post or make changes or whatever... Reason why am I "show-casing" my thoughts is cause I have no one to really talk to... No one that feels me... Feeling so lonely... Sigh... Guess i'll just end here...

A day more two remain apart, a notch lesser of their feelings remain...

Yo Dawgs... Welcome to the most borin' blog eva!!! damn... i'm getting myself into serious dipshits these dayz... hurt both my knees again... stuck inbetween Dancing and Archery or Studies and Relationship... Lord!!! SAVE ME!!! ANYONE!!! i suck... peace out!

24th of March 2006. Doom's day for Ngee Ann Poly Students. Results will be out in just a moment... Peepz, Keep those fingers cross and just pray for the best... I've been summoned from my deathbed once again... come on... let me rest already!!! I'm sick and tired to digging out the daily stuff outta my mind and place em into blog. But hey, that's wad a blog is for anyway. put ya stuff in dere and share it with all. Ok maybe not exactly all but those that knows my blog. Come to tink of it, who knows my blog? BWAHAHAHAHA!!! Alright now, going off for work in sch... Dell Laptops! HERE I COME!!! And all dudes and ladies that i know out there, WISH ME LUCK!
Peace out,
Reaper

Jeff's dead... Death time 23 01 00

I'm not me no more!!!

Man... I'm really STRESSED UP... Exams are killing me... someone plz save me by teaching me how to master integration in 1 night! Sigh... end of me i tell ya... adious amigos....

stressed up... sigh... really stressed up... Why Can't I just give up dancing for now??? Imma fail my papers!!! GG

Hmmm... its been long since i've even visited my blog... as of today, imma update my blog regularly ( I hope). Anyway, Imma wads below is the lyrics from the song "From this moment" Its a very kewl song :) but I'm still finding ways to upload it into the blog so i can share with all.. haha i'm still searching for the ways, if you know, plz leave a comment and tell me how k? haha thankz!!!
Alright, for now, enjoy reading the contents of the song :)

From This Moment

Written by Shania Twain and Mutt Lange.

(I do swear that I'll always be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness
and sorrow, for better or worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

(ps. Nice song lei.. haha those that wants it can find me :) wahahha)