Friday, August 18, 2006

Realize that my phone hasn't been ringing as often... Guess my observation really suck cause it hasn't really been ringing from 2 mths back. Sigh... really feel lonely inside... Guess it's like what my friends said. It's due to the fact that I was in a relationship for quite some time and suddenly I have to be alone. argh... Can't concentrate on my studies.. and I'm really stressed up now... really need a shout out... My math paper is in like 5 hours and 40 minutes time and i can't seem to get to bed or get anymore things into my head... Feeling really lousy right now... Had some flash backs while I was "watching" the movie "Click" with her (that was on tuesday)... bout our past and all... like everytime she tells me that her hands are cold, I'd hold her hands in between mine to warm her hands up... She told me that her hands are cold that day, I wanted to warm her hands up just 1 more time, i thought i could, but she just took her hands away. ouch... that really hurt my heart real bad.. sigh.. remembering that everytime we go to the movies, i'd bring a long sleeve shirt ( normally the black adidas shirt) for her so she probably can keep her body warm for a little bit longer... argh... hey, the pharse is really right. You dun miss the water till it's gone. sigh... yea, i still do miss her and love her... wonder if she does... Even though she says that she don't and said that she won't come back to me, I'll still hope that one day, she'll be back by my side. Damn... I really miss her... i really do... time check, 3:34 am, 5 hours and 26 more minutes to paper time... I'm totally freaking out now and i can't get to sleep... I think I need a doctor...

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