Aite friends, some of you might know that i'm stubborn guy and always love to fight through any obstacles that comes by me. But there are some sh*t that hits me like a strong baseball bat swing that does real deep damages and scars my life and my feelings. Sh*ts like relationships, studies and family.

Taking damage from one of those factors again. Relationships. I've always been wondering why my past relationship ends only with a word. Failure. Had one that almost made it but i jerk it away. Darn... I'm crying now... tears just burst out while listening to Good Charlotte's Hold On. Thanks guys, you got me there. I really felt like letting go and you sang the chorus. Great timing.

I've been asking myself questions like "Do i really need to feel accepted, reconised by people?", "Why am I clinging onto this relationship so tightly, when I could just drop it and make me feel better?", "Why am i asking so much from her?" and many more. Found all those answers now. It's better not to let her parents know about this relationship till its really stable . Never really know when would it end too. so ya... its better not to let them know at the moment.

Sigh ain't know what to write already. ciaoz